I was writing a blog post in my head as I took my afternoon siesta today...it's deep guys.
My Beth Moore Bible study asked us to walk through the crucifixion of Jesus again. I'm just going to put this out there, maybe I'm the only one. Maybe not. It is hard for me to really even touch the agony of his death. I've been a believer for over 15 years, active in church all that time. Of course, His death wasn't new to me back then, even before professing Christ, I grew up with an understanding of Jesus. It's become common to me. It's just Jesus. It was his job, he did it, I believe it, let's move on. I don't mean at all to be flippant, I promise. I am just not usually an emotional person, so it's hard for me to work up emotions about something that's become...I don't know the right word...just so common. I need a better word, I know, but I think you get it.
What do you do about that? Well, you pray I suppose. I did. I prayed that God would show me. Then I immediately regretted it. What am I doing praying God would show me agony?
That thought brought me to wondering about superstitions and how intertwined they might be with our Christianity. You know, like when we say don't pray for patience because you'll be put in a place to gain it? Is that truth? I don't know...but I sure don't want to pray for agony to find out.
Speaking of superstitions, I'm going to put something else out there that might get me in trouble with some of my friends. I've weighed the consequences of speaking about this here and decided that since this isn't black & white or clearly outlined in scripture, there's no reason to be shy about sharing my opinion on this topic. I believe some believers put too much power in the tongue. I don't believe we can curse our children, for instance, by saying that if we don't get their disobedience under control when they're 5, there's a good chance they'll be hard to handle at 15. Is there a problem with telling your child they'll never amount to anything? Of course, but simply saying something negative about your child going to curse them? Can an unbeliever have that much power in their tongue? Can an off the cuff negative comment curse someone? I can't believe we have that much power. If so, why can't I simply speak health over my sick child? God had power to speak all creation into existence, we aren't even close.
I'd love to be shown legitimate scripture on this topic-on either side of it. I'm surely not above correction...
How about those spiritual ramblings?
I'm glad for them-even if I don't have the answers. If I'm working through scripture and my beliefs, it means my day has been better than the first two school days of this week. I didn't need to go anywhere during school today, I started out the day with an hour with Beth Moore and the Lord, and there was a peace in my heart that I've not had all week.
I still have some unresolved schooling/household issues, but what's important is that my peace is back. I can work through anything with that peace, amen? Does anyone know what I'm talkin' about? (Can you hear Beth Moore saying that? lol).
Peace Out friends,